Saturday 22 November 2014

curhatnya • selamat tidur, aku.

Lucu bagaimana kemarin aku masih remaja, lalu hari ini umurku kepala dua. Kupikir aku akan jadi remaja selama-lamanya, kamu tahu? Karena diantara waktu yang sebenarnya pendek itu, aku menyelipkan banyak sekali kenangan yang membuatnya seakan-akan tidak memiliki ujung. Momen-momen sederhana yang merenggangkan waktuku sehingga rasanya menjadi sangat panjang.

Aku tidak yakin dari mana aku memulai, namun kata orang ini finis. Sudah selesai.

Tapi aku tidak merasa ada yang berbeda, kamu tahu? Aku tetap bajingan tengik kekanakan manja yang seperti ini saja. Tetap Dhika yang kemarin-kemarin. Tetap Theo. Tetap Ca. Siapapun nama panggilanku dan apapun aku di mata kamu dan mereka.

Sekarang apa?

(P.S.: Sepertinya aku akan jadi remaja selama-lamanya.)

Monday 3 November 2014

curhatnya • why can't you be happy with me?


Everyday do you notice that we're never free?
(HOLYCHILD)
Lagi kangen hidup sesantai ini sama orang-orang ini.

Wednesday 8 October 2014

tulisannya • bicara cinta



Kehilangan itu seperti
ditinggal terbenam matahari
tapi dia tidak terbit lagi.

Merindu itu seperti
hujan turun tadi pagi.

Dan mencintai itu seperti
hanya memberi
tak harap kembali.

***

(Lagi kangen rumah.)
FRTHEODORA
2014

Monday 18 August 2014

dora the explorer × nom nom nom • pantai indah kapuk, hong tang, hakata ikkousha

Hanging out with friends, enjoying decent summer sun, developing a tan, and getting some sore (in a good way) muscles. In short, I finally get a sliver of fun in my boring, all work no play summer break, all thanks to Thia and Michelle that practically pulled me out of my hermit nest. Yas!

Pantai Indah Kapuk has been popular for quite some time, and I always wonder what the hype is. There's a recreational pool. Cool. There's rows and rows of restaurants. Cheeky. And then there's a mangrove conservation. Interesting. But for the love of God why do they call it Pantai Indah Kapuk if there's no beach on site?!

Or maybe there's a beach somewhere. Meh.

The area as a whole itself is quite neat. You get off from the highway and rows of restaurants/cafes/shops are waiting for you to choose. The signs are easy to read, the roads are as smooth as a baby's bottom, and the traffic is hella crazy starting afternoon. Anyways, we went to a dessert shop, the infamous mangrove conservation, and a ramen/noodle house, in that particular order.



1. HONG TANG


I was hungry, okay? And dessert is the best appetizer you could ever have. And of course, Chinese dessert is so IN right now! I don't even remember the name of the order, but THE PORTION IS HELLA BIG! I shared this bowl with Thia and I still feel full after we finally reached the bottom. The green tea ice cream is really good, and I always love boba. And yas, even my gummi bear loves it!

The interior is decent, kinda plain, I guess, but it serves the purpose. And the air conditioner is a nice change from the hot humid weather outside, so there's that. The door girl is so nice too!



Service - 4/5
Ambience - 3/5
Food - 4/5


2. MANGROVE CONSERVATION


DAMN this place is very VERY PHOTOGENIC!

It is actually quite generic and below my expectation of a nature conservation, since I've been expecting something TNGGP-like, but I guess you can't expect something that real smack in the middle of urban area. It is very photogenic, though. I love the lighting, I love the scenery, I hate the wood walkway because it's not neat and it hurts, but I guess they gave you a little experience of walking in the woods.

IMHO the ticket is way overpriced for something so... ordinary? But it do looks good though. Kinda small, I guess. But it's pretty popular for photoshoots, which leads to another minus for a poor uni art student like me: we have to pay like one mill rupiahs to have a professional camera with us. Thank God for high-tech cheap cellphones.

But I'll definitely come back if I got the company, twas fun.

Overall - 3.75/5


3. HAKATA IKKOUSHA


They sell pork. Figures I should get that warning out before reviewing the food.

Food's great! It may not looks like it, but it is really great. The noodles are A+, the broth is love, and overall the food is great. The portion is quite big too, for me, and they are quite generous with the toppings. I love the refillable ocha, because I drink a lot of liquid, so it's a perk I can't refuse, really.

Interior's okay, I don't really remember but I think they have that bar facing the kitchen for the Japanese ramen house authenticity. Nice touch on that side. Staffs are grumpy cats, but they do their job, I guess, and they are not outwardly rude, just looking grumpy and tense.

Service - 3.75/5
Ambience - 3.75/5
Food - 4/5


4. RATI RATI

Bonus review! Went here to get roll cakes to go for my parents. They got this cutesy cafe interior, nice display and all. In short, somewhere I'd definitely choose for a photo-session. Anyways, cake's great, soft and dreamy and everything happy. They also offer customization, I guess? Because Thia can have a happy birthday text with her roll cake, but I don't really know the details. Worth a visit! They also got quite an array of baked goods.

Overall - 3.75/5

THIS IS THE END OF THE REVIEW.
*tacky song playing in the background*
*TOEFL's listening section style!*

I'm sorry for the shitty quality photos, because I'm a shitty photographer, really. All photos are taken with my camera phone and post-processed with VSCO Cam + Giddylizer. And blargh, what is grammar, really? My English is rusty as hell. Thank you Thia & Michelle for being the coolest companies of the day! It's cool to finally meet you guys IRL, lotsa love.

Toodles! x

Sunday 18 May 2014

Dear You




* * *

I often indulge in my split-second stupidity, but this is by far the most impulsive love declaration I ever did, except for when I kissed your cheek, once upon a time. It's like being sent back in time, composing a mixtape to woo someone. I ended up handpicking everything instead of cramming every cheesy love songs I could think of. I don't even know if you'll like it. You said you like indie, so I slipped one or two in the mix. Oh yeah, I can't help the Harry Potter reference; I know you might think that I'm a major nerd right now. I could ramble on and be the pointless little shit my friends often accuse of me, but I have a feeling that I'll say something even more stupid if I do, so, I'll leave you to it.

Here goes nothing;

Boom clap, the sound of my heart,
stay for tonight if you want to,
I want to fall in love with the stars in your eyes.

I'll slither up to you, you can be my lion cub,
settle down with me, and I'll be your safety,
we could dance all night if you stay with me.

I know I don't know you but I'd like to skip the small talks and romance, girl
'cause baby, two is better than one.

Yours truly,
S. Antareja.

* * *

Edited Sat, 07/01/17
to replace 8tracks -> Spotify playlist.

Tuesday 18 February 2014

curhatnya • 6 ways to ace ujian nasional

Ujian Nasional. That mofo? Been there, aced that.

It was mostly luck, of course. Most students find the low-grade paper the answer sheet was printed on an epic awful disadvantage. Me being the cheap shit I am, actually gained an upper hand. It was easier doing the black dots in that cheap paper rather than on the sleek expensive one. Sorry not sorry to be one of those kids that doodles on recycled paper!

And I am also that lucky bastard that only study partially for a test, all in my underprepared glory, and only the chapters I read (or mostly remember, because I don't really do studying) came up.

So this tips & tricks are proli super dubious and all, but hey, I did not get the highest UN score in my school only by pure luck. Maybe. But maybe there's someone out there that's as lucky as I am, so here goes nothing!

1. Pay attention. Lots of it. 
I know that teachers are extremely boring in class. I get that. They drone on and on and on about a certain subject that you want to puke because of information overload. Especially on that mandatory extra classes after school where they crammed three years worth of studying into a session. Like, what the fuck. But it will actually do you good if you pay attention. 
I seem to recall a scientist theory about remembering something perfectly after you read it seven times (more or less? idk). So, if they repeat the chapter long enough, there's a good chance that the information will cling to your brain. If not read it, at least do hear it. I seem to recall that it's easier to learn by listening.

2. Those mock tests and exercise books? Do it. 
There's the UN try outs. There's this book called 'Bank Soal Ujian Nasional' or something similar. And there's your teacher handing a lot of exercises. Do answer them, it'll do a lot of good. Yes, it is boring. Yes, the questions are damn repetitive. But the repetitiveness of it will get you on the subject easier. Like Math, if you do it enough, you'll soon do the equations with ease. 
And the question roll in UN is pretty similar to the years before that. There will be certain chapters that always came up on the test. If your teacher is like super veteran in teaching, they will know EVERYTHING that will came up, so they will exercise those more. 
I recommend the book 'Detik-Detik Ujian Nasional' by Intan Pariwara, by the way. I never actually have one, but it was very popular among my peers last year. Plus, for the Social kids, do buy the book 'Menguasai IPS Sistem Kebut Semalam' by Muhammad Doddy AB & Sriyanto. SUPER. RAD. It has everything. The cover is super doubtful but it comes in pocket size and it's like having three years of studying in a book. Really.

3. Study group is actually useful. 
Well, only if you do study instead of fooling around, of course. Because you and your peers have different fortes. In my year, UN actually kinda strengthen the bonds between friends, because we help each other out. I don't get Math, I got help. Friends don't get Accounting, I helped. Everyone is happy. Everyone passed the test. 
We often rehearse stuffs in the morning of the test, quizzing each other and all that jazz. It jogs memories, and we will often recall things we talk about. So, yay? 
And if you already aced every subject and refuse to help other people, you won't need this guidance anyway, so go suck balls. Selfish arsehole.

4. Study hard. Pray harder. 
The part of studying hard? Me not so much. The part of praying hard? Um, not so much too. I've never been an avidly religious person and I do my interaction with God in much more familial way instead of reverently (yes I'm such an insolent ungrateful child) but I do pray about UN once or thrice. More like a desperate cries for help and guidance, but, yeah. My parents (and maybe brother & other family members) do most of the praying. 
But, do pray. Have faith. Just because we are bunch of selfish ungrateful human beings does not mean God will refuse our plea for help. He is very generous, from what I've experienced.

5. Double-check your shits.  
One of the mistakes students often do is not double-checking their answers. They just want it all to end quickly that they breeze through it. You have to be sure that you answer the test correctly (except when you really don't know the answer, then you have to be sure that the answer you choose is most likely the correct one; do the logic and all that shizbams). 
To err is human. We might unintentionally blacken the wrong answer, or the wrong number on the answer sheet. And it is really sucky to have the right answer on the wrong number. Also, in distress, we might interpret the question wrong, or do some misstep in the calculation. So double-check! You don't want to fail the test because of mundane mistakes like that.

6. The most important thing of all things that matter: SLEEP. 
Yes, sleep. No jokes. It's VERY important. I slept at least 7 hours/night around UN d-days. Forget all those late nights trying to stuff more shits into your brain, it may unable to digest it. If you do your strategy right, everything you have to know about UN, it'll be there. That's why try outs and those exercises are pretty important. You need to be well-rested for UN. It'll lessen the anxiety of actually doing the UN. 
It sucks being anxious while you're sleepy. You'll get real grumpy, and all those negative thoughts during UN is very dangerous. That's what drove people into suicide. Be happy! And sleep makes people happy, right?

In my own experience, UN is not that anxiety-inspiring. I think my school do too much try outs that UN just feels like another mock tests I got to endure. Too much exercise ripped the band-aid, maybe. They took the scare away. And it was very helpful to have the weathered teachers, because they are experienced, they know what they're doing, and they do it good.

So, yeah, that's my 6 Ways to Ace Ujian Nasional, WITHOUT CHEATING! :D

It is really unhelpful, isn't it? Sometimes something just works for certain people. Or maybe I just got lucky. Kbai! x

Saturday 15 February 2014

curhatnya • Clinging To Not Getting Sentimental

Last night at home before the new semester: my room reeks of coffee, the speaker is crooning whatever alternative rock music I had in my playlist, my things are half-packed, and I'm floating in between consciousness and blissful slumber. In short: a perfect night that will turn into a chaotic morning of double-checking my luggage and find out that most of the important stuffs are not inside.

I'm not sorry. Yet.

(Title taken from Fluorescent Adolescent by Arctic Monkeys)

Wednesday 1 January 2014

curhatnya • 2014


I hear it calling outside my window;
I feel it in my soul.

The stars were burning so bright;

the sun was out 'til midnight.

(Best Day of My Life; American Authors)